The lonely wanderer

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Altitude wilderness and waves
His dreams revolved around the trio,
The lad who loved the loneliness
Grew up to be a sole wanderer,

Transfixed the hunk stood
His gaze lingering past the mighty hills,
His eyes drowning in frenzied lust
To embrace the mountain air,

Mist wrapped him under her tender blanket
His fiery breath shallow against her icy smile,
The thump thump of this heart though loud
Was heard only by the falling leaves,

No where he felt more at home
Than the wildest of all the jungles,
A lil cave by the brook was his abode
Which he shared with the les fauves,

Thunderstorm for him was a cheery drizzle
Furious howling gale a joke,
Mammoth trees dropped dead but not he
He was a warrior, with the world against his side,

Though surrounded by hungry sharks
Calm and cool he was,
Gulls mewed, waves splashed
And the night grew dark,

the cruel waves of the ocean
washed away the last breath of many ,
but he made those very waves his deepest love
And the mighty tides his craze,

Blinded by the sandstorm
And pining for some water,
He walked on his sore limbs
But without wavering from his trail,

And one fine day he saw them, those two
His face was lit and hers so bright,
He watched ’em walk away and paused for a bit
With a new bleeding gash right on his heart!!

Poem by CHIRI

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#4. When sleep declares war on you!

30710659_2046633932017660_1395948818846973952_nThe rush of bright sunlight through the bedside window was the first thing I saw when I opened my eyes that morning.The happy “yaayy it’s morning” chirping of the birds tickled my ears. Oh! Wait a second ..what was all the loud blasting music that I hear now? The new alarm tone of my roomie ! I took one looong look at her peaceful and content face .So blessed I was to get such a beautiful soul as my roomie .

I reached out for the the water bottle on her table and took a sip ..you know ‘coz water is good for your body and poured the rest of it on her face! How dare she sleep so well through this cacophony ! How dare she leave the curtains of my window open ! How dare she set her stupid alarm knowing pretty well that the legend who can invent an alarm that can wake her up has not been born yet on this planet or any other planet as for that matter ! Such a bish..

By now you might have guessed . I’m not a morning person .But that’s not it. I wake up to every weeny noise and every lil stream of sunlight .U won’t get the intensity of my problem until I put it this way, if someone sleeping 8 rooms away from me snores,I wake up thinking there’s an earthquake with 7 point intensity on the Richter scale! (Well that was a wee bit exaggerated..it’s not that bad).There now I have created an image that I’m a grumpy old girl but I am telling you …this grumpy person takes over my personality very rarely ..like in 3 or 4 days a month lasting only up to 4 or 5 days at a time..that’s not much to put up with right!?

So as I was saying I am not a sound sleeper and that worries me like crazy. Its all good when you have an exam and must wake up at 4’0 clock in the morning. You know what! I do have some epic bragging rights.. I wake up at the second or third ring of my alarm whether it’s midnight or early morning.. Bet none of you can do that right??? Of course I am right.. In my 19 years of vaaaastt experience(😎😎) and deep intense research on sleeping habits of people, I have never met a single person who can beat me in a wake-up-to-every-single-rustle-of-leaf competition (pheww that was long). But then I wake up to not just mine but others alarm too. So five other roomies besides myself set alarm for five different hours and waking up five times in the four hours that you actually sleep is not at all a pleasant feeling.And what’s even worse (I used to think there’s literally nothing worse than waking up during a sound sleep but trust me I found something worse or more precisely it found me)…sleeping off during an exam! Can you just imagine the embarrassment when an exam invigilator shook me up from my sleep during our semester exam! And not to forget the sniggering of the kids around me..I was in a daze and everything was happening so slow but yea!the moment I saw the invigilator’s burning stare, everything came back to me and I took the question paper and started chewing the pen and did the infamous stare-into-the-ceiling thingy that every student is familiar with

So guys out there! If you know this feeling of total exasperation at not being able to sleep like a python(coz I know python sleeps a lot and how do I know it? I just Googled “sleepy animals”) then.. well there’s nothing we can do about it other than be jealous of those lucky sound sleepers! Once my bestie/roomie asked me to wake her up and after useless attempts ranging from shaking to shouting, I said I was gonna open her last packet of rainbow cookies in a soft mild tone and out of nowhere she sprang up shouting “give me back my cookies “! You can try that next time.. Works like magic!

My love for sleep can easily match our Joey Tribianny’s love for food and you know what. But I don’t think” SLEEP” realizes this at all because it ditches me all the time. I go to bed feeling insanely sleepy and everything’s good until the moment I close my eyes. Once I close my eyes the thought soldiers start the march past into my poor brain! Every conversation I had that day will be critically analysed.. What I actually said and what I should have said!! How I answered the teachers that day and how I should have answered! The fights and word wars I had! Infinite number of bright comebacks and smart back answers comes to me while I am on my bed but while the actual thing happened that day all I did was stare at my opponent, gaping like a goldfish without saying anything intelligent and looking like a total looser altogether! And then that nasty fall comes to you.. Aishh…i tripped right in front of those cute guys.. And they laughed! Cringe Cringe……….. So silly of me to not look at the floor while walking.. Another round of Cringe Cringe.. “Sleep.. I hate you.. I really do”

I used to be really scared of darkness and used to sleep with my parents till I was in 9th grade or so.. So embarrassing I know.. And even after I started sleeping alone, if I woke up in the middle of night, I would go to my parents room and sleep there. I actually thought this was the ultimate embarrassment until my friend told me her life story. She’s 19 years old and if she wake up in the middle of night, you know what she does? No.. she doesn’t go sleep in her parent’s room like me. She take her cell phone.. Call her mom who’s 3 steps away from her bedroom… Makes her mom come to her bedroom.. Tag along with her mom back.. And sleeps with her mom in her mom’s bedroom.. People like her make my life a whole lot easier.

So guys we can now safely conclude that you are not the only one worried about the lack of sleep. We have all been there. If the cause of your insomnia is a heartbreak or depression, then there’s nothing I can do about it. But if it’s the mild kind, then maybe a few sleep hacks I found useful can make a difference for you.

Sleep hacks to my explorers,

  1. Adjust the room temperature :If your room is too warm, it may affect your sleep . So open the windows and invite the cool air in. If you have already tried that then try slipping into a lighter cotton dress!
  2. Wash your feet with cold water :idk why but for some reason I have always found this very helpful!
  3. Have a glass of milk
  4. Google something interesting or a something short and sweet, tire your eyes and mind bit and you will fall off to sleep faster.
  5. Okay this one might sound stupid but we all know it’s true “fake it till you make it” :That’s right fellow insomniacs, u gotta fake sleep till it comes to you

P. S. I really hope my blog didn’t make you fall asleep

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Written by CHIRI

 

#3. BAD DAYS: The ultimate disaster

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pexels-photo-720362Some days you wake up and you just know that it’s gonna be a bad day. Its like you open your eyes and see these bad vibes marching all around you. Sometimes you can sense this even before you open your eyes .Gathering all your energy you sit up and push yourself out of your bed. You press the toothpaste  tube and too much of it comes out ,more on your hands than on the brush and that’s when you know that the whole day is gonna be a disaster !!

Red top with the half‌ sleeves..meh..blue one without the sleeves ..too ugly. Denim one. ain’t working..Why can’t I look like a normal human being in any of these outfits is the next worry …Then you look in the mirror and see a scarecrow staring back at you ..frizzy haired with beautiful dark circles that could beat even Saturn .Just when you think things couldn’t get any more worse you notice the four perfectly round bright red pimples

Ok this is all too much ..you think to yourself. Maybe you should just skip college? After all home is the only place where you can look like a banshee and still feel like a model. But is it too much to ask for my attendance to match my mood? Well apparently it is because my attendance was far below 75% which was the minimum requirement! Now I am just narrating my version of bad days!

‌The reasons for a bad day might range from an upset parent ,a moody bestie ,a bad hair day, a flunked exam or a missed alarm ..We all have our stories of bad days .The reason for our bad days vary but the effect of it remains the same everywhere. But the important thing to note is that like all previous bad days this one too will pass in a matter of some 24 hours .Plus you have survived some really bad ones before so it’s gonna be a piece of cake for you. All you have to do is think of the many more happy days that are yet to come .If that doesn’t do the trick then put on some pajamas and lock yourself in a room with the following apparatus. Some really good books (or movie if you are a movie person), chocolates, chips and juice .I don’t know what you guys think but I always feel that giving it some quality “me time” helps. Of course shutting yourself away from others is not always a good idea but you cannot deny that it gives you a sense of comfort and reassurance that you are gonna be okay.Add a long shower to this and you are back to normal. Well not completely but you know ..almost!

But you know what else helps.? Your attitude towards it.One time I had a bad day and spent the whole of it moping around and complaining and snapping at anyone within a fifty mile radius but at the end of the day it was I who suffered more than anyone else .So I decided to take a better attitude towards it ..I know bad stuff is gonna happen so why not be prepared for it .For most people listening to your jam has a soothening effect and it actually helps you to behave better cordially towards your fellow mates. There are tons of other ways too but it is you who should sit back and find ways that’ll make your bad day a lil less bad. After all you cannot make people around you suffer just because you are going through a bad day right!?

But inspite of all this, you do deserve the right to complain a bit. Why would bad days exist in the first place if it weren’t to give a platform to bring out that cranky demon that dwells in your body! And yea to measure the rate of loyalty of your besties too! If your bestie hasn’t bade you sweet bye even after a number of nasty day episodes then stick to her like sticky honey ( well I would have said super glue if only you weren’t such a sweet soul)! ‘Coz that’s when‌ you know that what you have is for life

Another problem with these bad days is that you end up hating your life. You look around and see perfect people with their perfect hair and perfect complexion living their perfect lives and that makes you wonder why you are so messed up! And honestly it’s depressing. The more you think about it the more depressing it gets. I know because I have experienced similar instances of bad day attacks that made me think how good it would be to live as someone else and not as Linnet Philip. Someone who isn’t so messed up ..someone who has everything in control. And someone whom everyone look up to. But these feelings ,no matter how intense they are doesn’t last for that long.Once you get back to your normal self you realise that things aren’t as bad as you thought and that you are gonna be fine. Okay so your life isn’t picture perfect or anything but it’s still worth its imperfections. You have people who love you, the imperfect you ! You have people who haven’t moved by your side all these years and you have people who make me smile every single day. Little things like your friend getting you your favorite chocolate or your mom getting you a cute top that she thought would look good on you or a really long talk with someone who matters to you is all what is takes for you to fall in love with your life all over again. And after being back to your normal self you wonder about all the drama you kicked up only a day or two before. Like was there even any need to be this upset about it .! Honest answer..No..but that’s the thing about bad days .You cannot think rationally while you are at it and once the whole thing’s over you are left to mull over all your doings thinking who the heck took over your personality !

These bad days brings out the bipolar nature in us. We go from happy happy to moppy moppy in a matter of seconds .But we shouldn’t let that get the best of us.We all have our own portions of bad days that we must drink and while we may not be in control of our lives all the time,  we certainly have a role in not getting it out of control. So the next time you experience a bad day,instead of freaking out and blaming yourself later ,take a deep breath and say to yourself “I got this!!” And voila your bad days turn into the best learning platforms of your life making you a much stronger person than you were yesterday!

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Written by CHIRI

The Phase

cyclist-3202481_1280Lazing around in summer bliss,
Soaking up the sun and loving the breeze
I walked around in perfect glee,
Loving my life just as it is.

Then I saw you for the first time,
Answered you in a single word
But that would never have been the case,
If I knew you would cause me sleepless nights

Hand in hand, I walked with my friends,
Raised my head and saw you ahead
stared at you for some seconds longer,
But never once did you glance my way

Walking around in a virtual maze,
Many a times, we were inches apart
A word or two to fill the gap,
Feeling nothing but perfect ease

Dusk gave way to a starry night,
Joy and laughter filled the air
We boasted to stay up the whole night,
But our droopy eyes said otherwise

Seven suns ,seven moons later
My heart still misses a beat
And then the races to catch up
At the mere mention of your name

I looked back and go teary eyed,
If only I could have done a bit more
Laughed a bit more, joked a bit more,
Smiled at you a bit more.

Poem by CHIRI