I’ll tell you an honest fact before I start on this one. This post will reveal some really embarrassing quirks of mine that I never thought I would be able to confess. But as of late I have been trying to push myself out of my comfort zone and do stuff that’ll mould a braver Linnet so here we are…!
Every single one us have some weird habits that we are not really proud of but something which we cannot shake off either. Well I have a cartload of those. When I was younger I was really ashamed of these quirks (well I still am though not that much) and would spend hours worrying about the consequences if my friends ever found out. Like that would be the end of the world (end of my world at least). But thinking back I realise those were just the fears of a young kid who didn’t wanna loose her friends for being different from the rest.Okay, so I’ll move on to my very own personal bad habits that annoys the shit out of me
1: Sucking my fingers (don’t laugh I outgrew of this habit looooongg looooongg back). So you might be wondering what’s so weird about it, most of the kids do that. But then most of the kids stop it by the age 3 right? Or maximum till 5 or 6. Tell me have you ever seen a kid who’s over 10 sucking their thumb. I don’t think so. I used to do it till I was in 7th grade. Yes, I’m not even kidding. At school I’ll be like any normal kid but once I reach home and change out of my uniform, the ring finger automatically goes into my mouth. My family used to make so much fun about it and I was even taken to a doctor once (there I have said it). Curious about how I stopped this annoying habit? I put a band-aid on my finger, complete with a yucky smelling medicine for cuts (betadine I think) and all. And in a few days that habit bid me sweet bye. I was so proud of myself that I couldn’t stop grinning for days 😂😂
2.Cropping off my hair: Short hair never looked flattering on me. And not even a single person has ever told me I look good in short hair. I’m kinda tall(ish) and everyone tells me I look better in long hair and even I don’t disagree. But… I get this weird urge to chop off my hair as soon as it grows a bit. Really short like a guy’s. And I wouldn’t feel at peace until I do so. With every haircut disaster I tell myself this is the last time. But the saga continues to date!Now the only thing left for me to do is find a really cool short hair style which wouldn’t make it seem like I have a wig on!(though there’re better chances of me topping the next semester exam than me finding a good short hair style. Just to make myself clear there’re better chances of me being a princess than me topping any semester exams.. Im stopping.. I stopped😷)
3.Forever addicted to food: I’m not talking about those normal hunger pangs where you end up eating a lot. Mine is way different. If there’s some food I like in the house, I have to eat it whether I’m hungry or not. Simple (and weird) as that. Even on a full stomach which is at the verge of bursting open, I can still eat if this feeling takes over me. And after eating, there’s this mixed feeling of guilt and satisfaction so rare that nothing beats it.Actually I’m getting better self control with food these days, now that I started to notice that half of my clothes don’t fit me anymore..so cheers to that!!
4.Number of kids I want : I’m the kind of girl who didn’t know what stream to choose after my 10th grade (science or commerce) and had my mom to choose it for me. I didn’t know what college to go to after my 12th grade either and had my dad to choose it for me. In short I’m really irresponsible when it comes to major decision making and I still expect to be treated like a kid. Which is really really weird because, I had already decided the number of kids I want after I get married, by the time I was in 7th or 8th.And that’s not the creepy part.. I have even named ’em.. Now all I can hope is that my husband would be okay with the names!!
5.Depression strikes: Some days I feel really depressed without any apparent reason. This is so frustrating because when people ask you what happened, you have no explanation to give and giving a shrug wouldn’t be enough for everyone, NO they need to know the exact reason. Some days even you yourself doesn’t know the exact reason behind it and the other days you are not able to put your feelings into words. That downright sucks but it passes after a day or two so it’s something I wouldn’t really mind living with! There’s no particular thing I do to make me feel better other than talking to someone who actually understands or watch some good-feeling movies!
6. Reluctance to be in a relationship: This one I’m sure there are many people out there who are on the same boat as me. I am 19 and I have never been in a relationship. The main reason for this is because I hate all the couple drama and never really felt the need to have a guy in my life, I mean I’m really happy with how things are in my life and I don’t wanna mess it up. Being in love at such young age could be really exhausting if you are with the wrong guy and I don’t wanna risk that. Once I feel that I’m mature enough for it (five – six years in the least), I’ll just do what’s required then! Meanwhile I’ll just have to do without the couple tees and holding hands and late night convos!(I mean who’s insane enough to sacrifice sleep for love.. Not me)
These is just five among my numerous other quirks. I could go on and on but then I wouldn’t wanna bore you guys either. So, my point is we all are homo sapiens and what makes us unique from other homo sapiens is our individual eccentricities and kinks. They are part of who we are and there’s no need to be sad or upset about it. If you feel that there’s no way you can change it then learn to accept and live with it! And you would feel so much better once you learn to accept it, trust me on this one. Another thing to keep in mind is not to judge anyone else just because they are not like you. Appreciate their individuality and only then you would be able to grow as a person
(Like I said in the beginning of this blog it took me a lot of courage to make all these confessions and I’m grateful to my readers for reading it till the end. Feel free to comment your quirks and weird drives too so that I’ll feel a lil better about myself 😂😂)
Written by CHIRI